Asneha Shrestha
29th May 2021
Today while I was cleaning my cupboard, I found some old pictures of me and my son.
We all were laughing in that picture. I believe that it should be some really funny moments but now situation is completely different.
It recalls how I once enjoyed stay in hospitaldespite being in pain.The situation now is completely different. I was happy even though I was in pain by looking at you; but now looking around and finding nobody there to share my sorrow I am shattered.Loneliness is my friend now!
I gave birth to you. I saw your faults and your insecurities. I saw the side of you which you had never shown to other. I know that sometimes I had made mistakes and I apologized for those mistakes. From the moment you were born my heart was yours. I hope you may understand and come back to me. Today marks one month since you left me in this house.I feel so lonely without you in this house. I still remember the day when you used to play in this terrace, asked me for food, insisted me to play with you; but now these things are just in my memories.
When I see every people of my age with their grandchildren,my heart becomes heavy and my eyes get filled.It’s been long,my son, I haven’t seen you closely. It’s been long my grandson hasn’t come near me and hasn’t asked me to sing a song for him. My son, you don’t know how difficult it is to be alone in the house. I’m neither physically strong nor mentally fine. I’m losing my eyesight day by day. I wish you’re here with me.
I’m waiting for you,my son. Almost all the hope of you coming back are down now. But still in the dark, there is a little hope that you will be back soon. I don’t know how long I will live but till that day I just want to spend my rest of life with you. I wish you the strength to face the challenges with confidence along with the wisdom to choose the right path carefully.
I hope you’ll not pass through this same feeling I have been through. I hope your children will be able to take care of you in oldage unlike you care me this way.
[Asneha Shrestha is a student of grade XI at Koshi Saint James Secondary School, Itahari.]